— A coward. An unforgiveable, solipsistic coward, and hypocrite.
There are no words. By her own hand, like her life’s work, the unimaginable sufferings of the blighted body of a toweringly noble soul have at last come to an end, but not as and when she would have wished. The cruel decades have made a macabre mockery of any thought of what she “deserved.” Life failed her, unpardonably, and death failed her too, and most of all, the “healing profession” failed her; but she has triumphed over it all nonetheless, pellucid and undiminished, as not a single one of us could have come close to doing. I loved her and was in awe of her for most of my conscious life, far, far too much to even conceive of wishing her to have had to endure one moment longer; and yet her loss is unspeakable.
