Resisted loving your cats,
\nfeeling it would be a betrayal of my dog,
\nlong gone,
\nwho so loved you.<\/p>\n
Fancied also
\n(oh so fatuously)
\nthat caring for them
\n(like carrying on teaching Tai Chi —
\nanother wrongful suspect)
\nwas diminishing your diminishing life
\nrather than preserving it.<\/p>\n
Now you’re gone,
\nonly their mute daily yearning for you,
\nrelentless, perplexed,
\nto be witnessed and felt,
\nand all resistance is dissolved.<\/p>\n
Remorse alone,
\nirremediable remorse,
\nfor having denied you
\n(and them)
\nmy love for them.<\/p>\n
Fidelity’s a false friend.
\nEven an instant
\nmay become an eternity.
\nFeeling alone,
\nimmanent feeling, felt,
\nmatters.<\/p>\n
Few the wrongs
\nthat can ever be righted
\nposthumously.
\n<\/i><\/p>\n
2010-05-23<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Resisted loving your cats, feeling it would be a betrayal of my dog, long gone, who so loved you. Fancied also (oh so fatuously) that caring for them (like carrying on teaching Tai Chi — another wrongful suspect) was diminishing your diminishing life rather than preserving it. Now you’re gone, only their mute daily yearning … <\/p>\n